Steve Broes

Live a Life You Love.

When Does It All Happen?

What a long, strange trip it’s been…

At what point did all this really start happening? I’ve heard myself ask that question so many times…

 Usually, it’s after an event when someone comes up to me and asks: “wow, you’re so young – so when did you start doing this?” And I really wish I had an answer for those people, but I honestly don’t. I really just have no idea. Now, when people ask me, I just look them in the face and tell them: “I don’t know.” Maybe we could get into some kind of deep discussion where we bring in all different advanced concepts, saying that it’s because time and space are an illusion - that there is no time for it to have happened at, and no place for it to have happened at – and that may very well be the case, but that’s really not my experience. I experience time, and I experience space – and that’s just my Truth. And ultimately, I just don’t know...


And I think that word, Truth, really is what it all comes down to. All the growth, all the Transformation, and for me my “Awakening” really all happened in the “’tween” spaces. It’s that space between milestones, the day-to-day grind and what’s truly going on inside you – where Life happens -- which is the mysterious, intangible and fertile ground for growth.

One thing the Oneness Phenomenon really gives me an appreciation and interest for is the process of pregnancy. Just look at it… the whole of life is contained within that one single process. Sometimes I feel like there’s nothing in the world to study other than the process of conception-pregnancy-childbirth. Oneness University says that the whole process, from your conception all the way through the first 6 hours after delivery are like a blue-print for your life, that everything about you – even your job and who you will marry – is determined by experiences during this span called “The Four Baskets.” Now, that’s a bold statement, but By God is that curious, and here’s one reason why…

When I look at my life and everything I’ve gone through, the positive and “light” things have been great and so much fun. But I really didn’t grow much there – I really wasn’t progressing by being in that space. It really was the times where I was challenged, and scared into oblivion, that forced me to develop. It’s more the “dark,” not the “light,” that gave me strength, that gave me confidence, toughness, appreciation, compassion, Love, sacredness, gratitude and all the things I truly want to experience, from the depth of my being. They were all born out of this “dark,” including my reason and purpose - and thus I was reborn into it.

I’m sure it’s interesting to read that, because you normally hear the opposite. Somebody’s victory story about how they escaped rough times permanently, and live in some kind of fantastical-dreamland now... I just honestly don’t believe that for a second. Everyone has those darker, harder times throughout their life, and everyone faces challenges and problems, even a child in the womb – the most pure and perfect process – is filled with challenges…

All those hard, difficult times God brought me were kind of like being sent back into the womb. Sent to break down and crumble, to begin to dissipate and burn to ashes – like a forest fire – so that new growth can take its place… and so goes the perfect circle and system we call Life, or the Universe.

 There’s no escaping the natural rhythms of life, and why would you ever want to do that? What a beautiful thing this Life is… With all its joys and sorrows, pleasures and pains, fears and excitements, failures and triumphant victories… My God, when I really started to see and accept the unchangeable nature of life, the way it moves and flows, hesitates then accelerates… it stopped being such a cyclone, and became more of a beautiful cycle, a Divine Flow just being itself and true to its nature – because that’s all it knows and can ever be. I started to cooperate, and I started building such a real living relationship with Life… as something that is Alive – not an inanimate object. As something Divinely Inspired, Divinely Implemented, and Divinely Beautiful…

It’s such a deep and Lush experience to feel it all – to move with it, to dance with it like a beautiful and mysterious woman… So magical and so innately sacred, all you can do is marvel at Her beauty – at the sheer Majesty of Her Being - and Love Her, helplessly, to the point where all you want is to be with her and be part of her… to work with her… to let her take the lead, and take you into Your Heart… Into Her Heart… only to see that all you’ve done is met each other in The Heart – that it’s only one Heart, one Love, one God. This woman is in a constant state of trying to get you to Truly Live. To bring you to True Freedom – to Liberation. A constant state of trying to get you to Accept… Surrender… so that the two of you can finally be together, and so close that there’s only one of you. All this woman wants is to Love you, without barrier, without limitation and without reason…. Causelessly… to consume you by the Love that She Is – so deeply and completely that it’s the experience of Everything…

Next time, maybe we’ll talk about how to move with Her, how to dance with Her, and how we can embrace Her, from the inside out… and the tremendous sense of Freedom and Fearlessness that comes with that... With knowing how to cooperate…

I really hope you enjoyed this, because it’s sincere and from my Heart, and I meant every word of it. I’m not enlightened, I’m not a Teacher and I’m not anything abnormal. I’m just normal. I’m a 23-year-old college student who discovered the Love of God and got tastes of real Freedom, and now all he wants to do is share it and take people to that place within their Heart, where God dwells...
...and from a place of shambles, within God’s "life-womb," one day it hit me… I found my reason - and so my passion, inspiration and everything I needed sprung forth from that moment of clarity… and my reason was You. Yes – You. You’re my reason and my motivation, my Everything. There’s no way to see you without seeing my God in your eyes anymore… I love you and I haven’t even met you, and you mean the world to me. This is my blog, this is my Truth, and enjoy your day.

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